Mulletized!

Drove around and sat under the naughty tree around the block. Flood. Blessed and burdened with not only photographic impressions, but a memory beyond three dimensions. The atmosphere, the feeling in the air, the words, the ideas I formulated at the thoughts behind the glimpses.

Like the first day of school holidays when it seemed like it was summer for the first time. Excitement, spontaneity, and all possibilities in the air. Blue Peter skirts and the smell of perfume and freshly blowdryed hair, glimpses of leg and grins. “Why do you keep looking out of the window?” at the tree. “I don’t know”. Meaning I’m afraid. Inexperienced in these moments. Excited to a standstill. In awe of the energy. Afraid of it. Sea air at night time. I can smell it. The way the moon hit the sea that night was something I will never be able to forget. Beautiful, beautiful, so beautiful. The moon stood no chance. It never will. Take a walk with me. I look different in the moonlight. I look different under this tree. Chasing the memory and imagination, I will always believe in the possibility. Fool maybe, most probably. Always the fool. My stories are old now and listening to them may not sound like they do on the beach or under the tree. But they are the same, they are the same they were back then. Its the same eyes behind this smile. Its the same warmth to my skin. Whatever beauty that made you grin is here. Its the same heartbeat you would do anything to get close to. No plea in any way. That’s not me. Desperate to treasure the good and not cling to the dying. I just cant believe in the death as I sat under the tree. I will trot along in my funny hat towards the treeless future if that’s what it holds.  My disclaimer is that i know I’m the fool. I would just rather be this fool than any thing else. I will take moonlight and oceans over any kind of nuts and bolts. Maybe that is the sign of a true fool. Dying needs, routine - moonlight replaced with tv, I still always watched an angel sleeping with absolute love and a rainbow smile.